This is actually a photo from last fall. I haven’t had opportunities for this great color this year. But my post isn’t about fall, it’s about self. Myself.
I struggle. I struggle with who I am. On one hand I feel like i am a great person, fun,friendly, etc. On the other hand, I see the faults, today is the day I see those faults, and I thought by writing them, maybe it would help me.
I feel lazy a lot of the times. Not wanting to do anything but to watch tv. OR play on my smart phone. ( i am addicted to that thing). I don’t get things done like I used to, craft projects, stuff that needs to be done, reading. etc. I have issues with not going to work when I should be.
Too me it feels like depression, but then I have great days, happy, fun, laughing etc.
I need to find a balance. I want my kids to see me as a role model. Not as a lazy person. I do a lot for my kids, but by me being home, they see that and ask…why are you home? It’s hard. Life is hard. I struggle to find the happy place.
I work with the public, most of the time I have great days with them. Then some days, I wish I didn’t have to be full front on with them. Rather be in the background.
Lately I have tried the approach to be more positive, and spread that statement to others. It works for awhile, but ….
I can’t seem to relax, I can’t sit still, I wiggle and jiggle and have to have something to do. It effects my stress.
SO, a new leaf I must turn, as the leave’s are turning color on the tree’s, I too need to change. I want my happy back, my sparkle,
Please encourage your friends, be positive, lift people up, no negativity. I need to do that too.